Done...

Finally done , I cannot believe that one day in my life I'll have a Bachelor Degrees. Today I earned every single bit of it. It's quite a weird feeling but  sooner or later I'll get over it. A lot of people say I'm lucky that I get to do what I love , I know I am there's nothing else I'd rather do than sing. But I have to tell ya , Studying music isn't as easy as you thought. I mean it's not hard like other faculty but you have to deal with a lot of emotional issues , and so many tears i've shed , and so many times I've have the be the person who lift the others up. Studying music is one thing you couldn't do on your own. You need inspirations and motivations from other people , you need encouragement from time to time.....and because of how competitive some people are there are a lot of discouraging floating around. I've had my good days , I've had my bad days ..... and now it's over and I know for sure that I will miss it so much , no matter how much I hated it and wish it was over at the time.

I've graduated.....but because of how much I've been through in my life , it's almost doesn't matter to me anymore but once I thought of my family suddenly I felt excited. Sometimes I questioned myself what do I actually learn ? Music that's one thing I could think of but then I realised there are thousands other things in life that I've witness , learnt and shared with other people. I have by far grow up. ...

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Been spending the day listening to Wendy Matthews , the song "The Day you went away " just remided me of something that happened to me and I just feel like writing it down now that I felt it..

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Who was the one to come up with the idea of raining in sad scenes in movies ? I haven't quite figure that out. But seems like it has to rain when someone's sad. But I guess it was more symbolic and added flavour to the movie.

But it was a perfectly sunny and warm Tuesday morning....when he left. There was nothing I could do when I got a text message and it said "Sorry I can't meet you in sydney , I'm going home" ...... I remember feeling sufficated , I couldn't breathe. I felt so helpless, I look around my room and there's nothing at all that I could do.....I called him and he answered , and I know there was nothing I could say to change his mind.  I didn't do anything wrong and neither did he....but things just getting too hard for us....and we couldn't see the future.....I remember thinking to myself....How on earth could I feel all time low , when it's so beautiful outside. It doesn't always rain does it , when sad things happens.....but I wished it did so I don't feel like the world is turning its back on me. While everything is happy the birds are singing , the sun shining , the earth is turning .... but I felt as if my world has ended.....

And that was the day he went away ...... happened over a year ago but I still remember how it felt , like it was today. ....

Does anyone has a similar story ? Share it with me , Let's call it "The day you went away stories"

Miss you all and it's great to be back

Soul Child